Mono's Incessant Ramblings

Bah, I say. I read the novel ONLY after my friends had complained for ages that I hadn't and because I heard everyone saying how GOOD it was, so, like Eragon, I read it under the good advice of close friends.

THEN I heard about the film. Don't get me wrong, I tend to enjoy (to a point) films made about novels. BUT, after seeing the previews for Twilight, I can't help but feel skeptical. Seriously, from what I've seen, Bella and Edward are all touchy-feely ALL the time, which NEVER HAPPENED in the first novel. It just DIDN'T. Edward was all, 'nuuuu, don't touch me, Bella! I am ebils!' and so on, so THAT part of the film will annoy me. HOWEVER, I will go see it when it comes out in Australia, and I will probably enjoy it. I'm mostly looking forward to seeing the other vampires =3

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You'd think the period between finishing school for the year and having to start your homework for next year would be a happy time. You'd think that, wouldn't you? Geh, it doesn't work that way for me.

As I mentioned yesterday, I have really bad hayfever. Well, at least, I thought it was hayfever, but it now looks like it'll be conjunctivitis. The only way I get relief from the pain is by pressing a wet facewasher on my eyes, but I've done this so often that now my eyelids are bruised. Basically, it looks as though I've had a run in with a gang member of some sort and they've punched me in either eye. Yeah, great look, this one is.

Plus the fact that I have asthma, which (as I'm sure many people know) makes breathing difficult. I've been on Asmol all day (which I think is some new type of Ventolin?), and it doesn't seem to be working at all. Perhaps a visit to the doctor will be in order, later. They can give me a preventer and something for my eyes. It's getting harder to pretend to still be optimistic that it will get better

As a matter of fact, I've been sick in one way or another since September. Sadly, although I remember not being sick, I don't remember the feeling itself. That's how long it's been for me.

So yes, like I said, I like complaining, and I've complained to everyone willing to pretend to listen, which makes me happier. =P

Well, that's it. All of my parties are over and done with. I feel quite sad, really...

The cosplay party was heaps of fun, everyone looked brilliant! You can take a look at all of us here. I'm Kazuki. Yay me!

And today at Yuki's, she made us all these little books with photos and contact info in them, and she wrote us all a letter. When I'd finished reading it, I burst into tears - everyone laughed at me, but I'm going to miss her so much. I'm going to end up writing to her all the time and sending her comics and drawing and all sorts of things!

So yes, the parties were fun, however sad at the end, and if you've never had a cosplay party, I'd suggest it to you, because it was brilliant. We had so much fun that we dressed up but never bothered to act like the character, unless we were posing for photos (because you HAVE to do it, then).

On another note, I have massive hayfever. Geh. The white of my eye is swelling over my iris, so it's incredibly uncomfortable. Luckily, on the 12th of December, I'm heading in to Melbourne to get myself tested again so I can once more undergo desensitisation. I had it done three years ago (and it only lasts for three) and it worked so well.

For the past term (all through exams and everything!) I've been getting really bad hayfever, so at last I can get something to fix it. Hurrah! It's terrible to go through this all the time, so I feel sorry for everyone else who gets it this bad, and I know people get it worse. Hopefully, we'll be able to overcome it some time, somehow...

I'm so excited! My friend Lizzy and I are hosting a cosplay party later today, and I am itching to go.

Originally, it was planned as a joint birthday party, but we decided to have it after school had ended (long after either of our birthdays) so it's more of a celebration kind of thing... The point is, I'm excited.

I had planned to go as Envy from Fullmetal Alchemist, but there was a slight hitch in the plans (ie. my medication giving me a larger belly and my not wanting to bother getting rid of it. I'm not that motivated...), so I changed my mind. Now, I'm going as Kazuki from Get Backers. That way I can wear a loose T-shirt to cover myself. Plus I got to go shopping in the boy's section for clothing. That was the most fun I've had in quite some time. Why do you guys have better clothing than us? WHY???

Anyway, I had fun looking for a shirt to wear, and I finally found one that I fell in love with. It's blue and has silver dragons on it, so Kazuki probably wouldn't wear it, but screw him because I am and that's all that matters. =D

And then tomorrow, we have Yuki's party, which is the last time I'll be seeing her... =( But I'm excited about the party nontheless.

Actually, come to think of it, this is the most active social life I've ever had, and I'm now 17... I feels happy, neh? ^^

Just in case you wanted to know, I thought I'd tell you.

I do a little drawing on the side of all the other junk I do, and I'd greatly appreciate it if you would go have a look. http://fullmetalmono.deviantart.com/

There's currently not too much there, but what I have there I am mildly fond of, so please have a look and tell me what you think, maybe?

On that note, I've just finished school for the year, so I have much more time to draw or write or do any other thing like that that I tend to do. Yay me :)

On a much sadder topic... Our exchange student, Yuki, is spending her last week in Australia before she heads back over to Japan. I'm going to miss her so much, I hope she keeps in contact via e-mail or snail mail or SOMETHING, because she was so great to have over here. Every moment I spent with her was fun, and she put up with all of my annoying questions about what things mean in Japanese //blush// . In either case... Ja ne, Yuki!

And to the rest of anyone who may or may not read this, enjoy whatever it is you do. Ja ne to you, too :)

I've been toying with the idea of actually putting this poem on here, but I really like it, so I figured, 'oh, what the heck? I'll put it up, just because it's nice'. So here, it is, W.H. Auden's, Lay Your Sleeping Head, My Love (also titled Lullaby - for obvious reasons...)

Lay Your Sleeping Head, My Love

Lay your sleeping head, my love,
Human on my faithless arm;
Time and fevers burn away
Individual beauty from
Thoughtful children, and the grave
Proves the child ephemeral:
But in my arms till break of day
Let the living creature lie,
Mortal, guilty, but to me
The entirely beautiful.

Soul and body have no bounds:
To lovers as they lie upon
Her tolerant enchanted slope
In their ordinary swoon,
Grave the vision Venus sends
Of supernatural sympathy,
Universal love and hope;
While an abstract insight wakes
Among the glaciers and the rocks
The hermit's carnal ecstasy.

Certainty, fidelity
On the stroke of midnight pass
Like vibrations of a bell
And fashionable madmen raise
Their pedantic boring cry:
Every farthing cost,
All the dreaded cards foretell,
Shall be paid, but from this night
Not a whisper, not a thought,
Not a kiss nor look be lost.

Beauty, midnight, vision dies:
Let the winds of dawn that blow
Softly round your dreaming head
Such a day of welcome show
Eye and knocking heart may bless,
Find our mortal world enough;
Noons of dryness find you fed
By the involuntary powers,
Nights of insult let you pass
Watched by every human love.

W.H. Auden, January 1937

There we go. Now, I wasn't all that into poetry before this year. I found some poems I really like near the end of last year, but this year I've been doing Year 12 Literature, and we studied Auden. How I LOVE Auden. I wasn't all that into it at first, but after doing it for awhile, I find I really like the poems. I might not be the best at discussing them, but how I love them. Lullaby is probably my favourite, but I do like a lot of others.

Anyway, the point of putting this up here was simply because of the fact that I thought that anyone who bothers reading this journal can now experience a wonderful piece of literature that has so much meaning behind it that it almost makes me cry. Almost. I don't cry over poetry. So yeah, I hope you can at least appreciate this. Heh, and maybe next time I bother to put an entry in, I'll do a bit of discussion about Auden's life and how this poem is funny because of it. Maybe.

Ja ne.

Oh yeah, being sick DEFINITELY has its benefits. Basically, I get to stay at home and rest (as well as finally put in my entry for Yuki's going-away book), and catch up on much needed nothing-ness. Aah, good times.

The downside to putting stuff in Yuki's book is that I am a known procrastinator, and the comic I was drawing for her is only half done... My bad. And another thing, I am lacking in creativity due to my sickness, so my entry to the book is lacking in... well, it's just lacking. The point is, I feel bad, so I'm going to go do more of that book. Er, yeah...

Yes, okay, I'm not officially dead - no doctor has signed a death certificate. However, I am dead in the fact that I have got such a massive cold that I almost feel like I'm dead...

So yes, I am dead.

On the plus side, however, I finally scored more internet space! WOOH! I now have 10 GIG a month - 5 on peak, and 5 off peak. As such, I was informed that I can watch anime AFTER midnight. Hello blank check for mayhem! Boo yah, and whatnot.

*shifty eyes* And I've been writing a lot, too... Heh, and by writing a lot, I mean 'writing a lot... of yaoi'. Which is always good fun. In fact, since I'm so sick, I might just write some more to make myself happy. My new pet is Ryu, and he's halfway through some... punishment. Little wolf-boys should be good to their masters... heh.

On that note, adieu.

Well, I've just realised why I hate the fact that I have only 2GIG downloads a MONTH...

See, I realised that I could probably watch one episode of anime a day. Fine, fine, but when I watch THREE in one days, I therefore have to miss out on two days of anime. Now, because I DID watch three, I had to miss two days. So I did. The problem was, because I didn't go on the net to watch anime, I forgot about it completely, and everyone at school began to complain that I was never on the net.

So I had to put up with two days of "why aren't you on MSN?" and "Why haven't you read this thing I told you to read?"... and it's all the fault of my parents' cheapness. But it's not anime's fault. Never anime's fault. It can't help that it's addictive...

Which is another thing...'

We have a Japanese exchange student at our school at the moment, Yuki. She's brilliant. And today, I visit her house, for Japanese food. Yum. ^^ This makes Mono happy.

Darn stupid internet. It thinks it's so clever, starting the new month on the TENTH and not the FIRST, unlike the REST OF THE MONTH!!!

My life for five days was over, since I'd downloaded... *cough* 1GIG *cough* over my limit, because we're too cheap to get a better broadband plan. So I've been stuck with nothing to do but listen to everyone else rave about what they've been doing on the net... bah.

So yes, that is my tragic tale. Five days of no anime, except four episodes of Inuyasha, which I watched on a DVD anyway... *sigh*

Well, I've just finished watching the Loveless anime, in Japanese of course. Hmm. Oh, no kidding, I loved it. I plan to watch it again. My complaint would have to be... WHAT THE HECKFIRE WERE THEY THINKING??? I'm so upset. I thought that the second season would be in the making. No, I was wrong. The entire thing ends like that. I won't say how it ends, for those who haven't seen it, but those who have will know what I'm talking about when I say "it was very sweet, but it leaves it open for a sequel, one which they better produce." But seriously, could Soubi's voice be any hotter? And could Ritsuka be any cuter? And... Kio was a guy!!! I thought Kio was a girl in the manga. Whoops. My friend Terv got a good laugh out of that one. And in all honestly, Sou-chan and Ritsuka-kun kissing is MUCH better animated, I swear. The main thing is, now I need to get the sixth book, since I'm waiting for that now. Apparently it only comes out ithis month in the U.S, so Australia will probably have to wait until, oh... 2009 maybe? And number 7 is due to come out in November in the U.S I believe. I suspect 2015 for that over here. Which is another thing. There's only going to be 7, or so I've heard. I hope I'm wrong, because I love Loveless. The main thing is, it'll have to end different to the anime, which is a good thing. Seriously, I disliked the end of this anime almost as much as I disliked the end of the FMA series. Almost. But if you haven't watched Loveless yet, please do, because it's very cute, and sweet, and funny. And it gives us shonen-ai lovers some much needed fan service. After all, isn't that what the entire story is about? Endless fan service? I thought so too. But go now and watch.